I know. [Zhou Fei glances away for a moment before returning Seren’s gaze.] You’ve told me again and again and I didn’t—
[It didn’t click. It still somehow felt like he was a consolation, especially after joining the crew, after seeing Janus and the mass of hot bodies walking around. Maybe it was insecurity, a deep- seeded sense of worthlessness that he never shook. But here and now, after everything he’s read? Now he understands.
Zhou Fei at least sighs at himself as he reaches for the bottle of wine and opens it with a small pop.] Am I the dumbest terran you’ve ever met? Or at least in the top ten?
Top ten, maybe. [ Seren gives a small shrug. It should've been explained more when he first came to tell Zhou Fei about the mars, but they were on a timer and he wasn't sure how much he would actually be able to say beforehand. But now that he's pulled off their escape... ]
But now you know. I'm not the type to go back on my word, you know that. Never mind that balii marks aren't exactly easily taken back, either.
[Zhou Fei pours each of them a glass as he listens. He knows, more than anything, how much Seren has stayed true to his word, despite everything Zhou Fei has put him through. Stars, Seren followed him to a literal desert, to the jaws of death itself, because of love.
Holding out Seren's glass to him,] I know. Stars do I know now. I shouldn't've ever doubted you in the first place.
[He could make excuses of being a kid from Raksa, a kid who grew up with literally nothing, but he's tired of hearing the same words falling out of his mouth again and again.] I'm gonna be better. Promise.
Should've done that when I first met you, not... [Zhou Fei begins before the gap in time really starts to hit him. He had years to learn, to get, to really get to know Seren, to come to grips with his feelings before Tritan. Even after Tritan, he had a burner contact for so long, wondered if Seren would even listen if he reached out.
If he would care.
And then Zhou Fei stopped thinking about trying, gave up on the thought of the two of them, not just as partners, but as friends. Until the warehouse job, that is, when he met Seren again face-to-face across a concrete floor. He can still remember that just the sight of Seren alone stole his breath away, re-kindled feelings he thought he'd buried away forever.
Now he's here, bearing the marks of Seren's love and loyalty, and he's still fucking up.] I...
Sorry. Just... thinking about all the time I wasted when I could've been at your side.
I wouldn't blame you for not. Most didn't even bother, thought I wouldn't last a year at the station.
[ He'd be lying if a good part of why he stuck around was out of sheer spite for everyone else thinking he wouldn't be able to make the cut. Something that he's pretty sure that Zhou Fei would understand.
Even if he wavered after Tritan, maybe ever so slightly.
But everything came crashing back with a vengeance when they confronted each other in that warehouse, and only grew afterward.
Seren shuts his eyes, before shaking his head. ]
You're just going to disappoint yourself thinking of the past like that. We have each other now. And I'm not losing you again, remember? I promised you that. [ His free hand reaches across the table to try and hold Zhou Fei's hand in his. ]
[Zhou Fei curls his fingers into Seren's as he gazes at him over the collection of candles. What a beautiful being. A gorgeous, stunning gift he doesn't deserve and yet here he sits with him, loving him despite the culmination of errors that composes his life.]
I know. [Zhou Fei murmurs, squeezing Seren's hand tight.] Just wished I realized earlier.
[Then maybe it wouldn've have taken so long to end up at this point, when Zhou Fei can truly appreciate Seren.]
[ Seren's expression is soft, softer than one would expect even coming from him. But something about Zhou Fei brings this out of him. Regardless of everything he's done to try and prove to the contrary.
Seren's hopelessly stubborn like that. ]
The important thing is that you realize it now. So let's just enjoy this.
[Zhou Fei can't help but smile in return at Seren's expression. No one else gets to see his balii like this, not even others who have slept with him, and no one ever will.
Just Zhou Fei. For as long as Seren will have him.
With his smile widening into a grin, Zhou Fei tugs their intertwined hands toward his lips so he can kiss Seren's fingers.]
You know I will, balii.
[And after a moment of relishing the mere sight of his partner, Zhou Fei wonders if he'll last through dinner.] You still want to eat food or can I have a little dessert first?
[ The gesture is enough for Seren to blush a little, swallowing so he doesn't end up sputtering and choking on his spit. Still, though. This is what he meant. This is what he had waited for.
He looks back down at their food, letting out a soft hum. ]
I'd hate for all this to go to waste, honestly. It'll make the dessert more worth it if we get through this first, though I'll admit it's a little difficult for me to focus.
Mmm. I suppose you're right. [Zhou Fei doesn't surrender Seren's fingers just yet. Instead, he keeps them pressed to his lips, gently bestowing one kiss after another. As if one more kiss will change his partner's mind.]
What's making it difficult for you to focus, partner?
[The question is far from innocent, though, especially as his sweet kisses turn to open-mouthed presses of not only lips but tongue, too.]
[ Seren gives him a knowing look, a stuttered breath escaping as Zhou Fei continues to caress and kiss his hand, fingers twitching when he starts using tongue on them as well. ]
Oh am I the reason? [Zhou Fei grins as he draws one of Seren's fingers into his mouth and begins to suck, hollowing his cheeks, as if to say this could be your dicks right now if you only ask.
Subtlety has never been Zhou Fei's strongest skill.]
[Zhou Fei grins around Seren’s fingers, meeting the wiggling with flicks of his tongue. Of course he’s direct, he’ll always be more direct when he’s got the option.
Especially now that Seren is all his, for as long as Seren will have him.
With a shift of his head, Zhou Fei begins to bob on Seren’s fingers, eyes glued to Seren’s face.]
[ This is more in line with what Seren figured would happen once they settled a little. While being on the Medusae had its ups and downs, he could at least say that they are for the most part safe.
Which is probably asking for it, but whatever.
Now, though-
He's watching Zhou Fei as he bobs up and down on his fingers, pressing them down on his tongue, his lips parting as he licks his lips, sharp teeth on display as he does so. ]
Mmm. [Zhou Fei hums around Seren’s fingers, as they press down on his tongue and remind him more and more of the dessert he so desires. His eyelids flutter for a moment and he watches Seren’s lips fall open, those delightfully sharp teeth a visible reminder of what could be waiting for him.
Time to work his magic. While continuing to bob, Zhou Fei toes off one of his dress shoes and extends his leg under the table to press his toes against Seren’s ankle.]
[ A shiver goes down Seren's spine once Zhou Fei's foot rubs against his leg, nearly slamming his knee into the table. That, coupled with the mouth working his fingers, is steadily and swiftly wearing down Seren's resolve.
It's getting real hard for Seren to not vault over the table and ruin the meal that has been crafted in front of them just so he can kiss the living daylights out of his balii. ]
[Fuck yes. Any worries Zhou Fei had concerning the meal have flown completely out the window as Seren’s leg jerks under his ministrations. Mmm. He can only imagine how hard his balii must be getting, those thick cocks filling and ready to pierce him and—okay so perhaps he’s also popping a boner. However that result should be expected every time Seren walks out in That Suit.
With another groan, Zhou Fei pulls Seren’s fingers deeper into his mouth, dark eyes fixed on nothing else but his balii, on imagining the digits in his mouth to be the real thing. His foot meanwhile works up to Seren’s knee, along the inner thigh, and further still, hoping his toes find a hefty bulge.]
[ He won't be disappointed to find that Seren is as far gone as he is - and of course he's already well on his way to getting hard.
His teeth dig into his lip, twining his leg with Zhou Fei's briefly before he abandons all pretense and shifts to slap his free hand down on the table and vault over the tabletop to push Zhou Fei down. His hand pulls out of Zhou Fei's mouth to be replaced with his tongue. ]
[Zhou Fei grins around Seren’s fingers when his toes find a bulge in his partner’s suit pants, but he doesn’t have long to celebrate as his balii vaults over the table. Fuck.
He pushes back the chair just in time to meet Seren’s body mass with his own and pull them down to the floor. When Seren’s tongue replaces his fingers, Zhou Fei fights back just as furiously with his own as he works at the buttons of Seren’s suit.]
[ Seren groans into Zhou Fei's mouth at this point, hands balled up and grabbing the lapels of his suit jacket, pressing his weight down. He absolutely meant what he said about never abandoning Zhou Fei anymore if he could help it, and after clashing tongues, his mouth immediately starts moving down his jaw and neck, toward one of the mating marks. ]
[When Zhou Fei’s mouth is freed, the first thing he does is release a moan. He loves this aggression from Seren, wants more of it any time they interact and tonight he has his wish. His hands release the front of his partner’s suit as Seren sinks down to the marks and tangle in the lamnii’s hair instead.]
Mmm bite me again, balii. Bite me as many times as you want.
[ There's a deep rumble as Seren half-growls, half-moans at Zhou Fei's words and how his fingers wind into his hair.
He can't help the fact when his hips roll a little, bulge pressing against Zhou Fei's as he shifts one hand to move under the suit jacket, fingertips pressing down hard against Zhou Fei's pectoral. Seren's teeth graze over the mark for the briefest of moments before he bites down, already overwhelmed by his desires.
Balii. [Zhou Fei moans as he's pushed down, as his hips meet Seren's in a delicious clash of friction. Most of all, the teeth moving against his shoulder pump every drop of blood south in expectation of what's to come. Yes, yes. Bite him. Bite him a hundred times, mark him for the whole universe to see, so there's never any doubt who he belongs to.
Just as Zhou Fei's about to curl a leg around Seren's middle, those teeth strike true and fuck if that isn't exactly what he needs. The former assassin releases another moan, high and thready as he rocks his clothed hips against Seren's.]
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Date: 2021-01-27 06:15 pm (UTC)[It didn’t click. It still somehow felt like he was a consolation, especially after joining the crew, after seeing Janus and the mass of hot bodies walking around. Maybe it was insecurity, a deep- seeded sense of worthlessness that he never shook. But here and now, after everything he’s read? Now he understands.
Zhou Fei at least sighs at himself as he reaches for the bottle of wine and opens it with a small pop.] Am I the dumbest terran you’ve ever met? Or at least in the top ten?
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Date: 2021-01-30 06:04 pm (UTC)But now you know. I'm not the type to go back on my word, you know that. Never mind that balii marks aren't exactly easily taken back, either.
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Date: 2021-01-31 02:57 am (UTC)Holding out Seren's glass to him,] I know. Stars do I know now. I shouldn't've ever doubted you in the first place.
[He could make excuses of being a kid from Raksa, a kid who grew up with literally nothing, but he's tired of hearing the same words falling out of his mouth again and again.] I'm gonna be better. Promise.
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Date: 2021-02-10 01:45 am (UTC)I get it. Really. It's hard to get over some things that we've grown up with.
[ Seren's own upbringing wasn't exactly all fun and games either, though in different regards than what Zhou Fei had gone through.]
I know you will be. You took the time to research. That's a good start already.
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Date: 2021-02-10 01:57 am (UTC)If he would care.
And then Zhou Fei stopped thinking about trying, gave up on the thought of the two of them, not just as partners, but as friends. Until the warehouse job, that is, when he met Seren again face-to-face across a concrete floor. He can still remember that just the sight of Seren alone stole his breath away, re-kindled feelings he thought he'd buried away forever.
Now he's here, bearing the marks of Seren's love and loyalty, and he's still fucking up.] I...
Sorry. Just... thinking about all the time I wasted when I could've been at your side.
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Date: 2021-02-11 12:22 am (UTC)[ He'd be lying if a good part of why he stuck around was out of sheer spite for everyone else thinking he wouldn't be able to make the cut. Something that he's pretty sure that Zhou Fei would understand.
Even if he wavered after Tritan, maybe ever so slightly.
But everything came crashing back with a vengeance when they confronted each other in that warehouse, and only grew afterward.
Seren shuts his eyes, before shaking his head. ]
You're just going to disappoint yourself thinking of the past like that. We have each other now. And I'm not losing you again, remember? I promised you that. [ His free hand reaches across the table to try and hold Zhou Fei's hand in his. ]
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Date: 2021-02-16 06:56 pm (UTC)I know. [Zhou Fei murmurs, squeezing Seren's hand tight.] Just wished I realized earlier.
[Then maybe it wouldn've have taken so long to end up at this point, when Zhou Fei can truly appreciate Seren.]
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Date: 2021-02-17 12:32 am (UTC)Seren's hopelessly stubborn like that. ]
The important thing is that you realize it now. So let's just enjoy this.
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Date: 2021-02-17 03:08 am (UTC)Just Zhou Fei. For as long as Seren will have him.
With his smile widening into a grin, Zhou Fei tugs their intertwined hands toward his lips so he can kiss Seren's fingers.]
You know I will, balii.
[And after a moment of relishing the mere sight of his partner, Zhou Fei wonders if he'll last through dinner.] You still want to eat food or can I have a little dessert first?
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Date: 2021-02-18 01:04 am (UTC)He looks back down at their food, letting out a soft hum. ]
I'd hate for all this to go to waste, honestly. It'll make the dessert more worth it if we get through this first, though I'll admit it's a little difficult for me to focus.
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Date: 2021-02-18 01:54 am (UTC)What's making it difficult for you to focus, partner?
[The question is far from innocent, though, especially as his sweet kisses turn to open-mouthed presses of not only lips but tongue, too.]
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Date: 2021-02-18 02:36 am (UTC)[ Seren gives him a knowing look, a stuttered breath escaping as Zhou Fei continues to caress and kiss his hand, fingers twitching when he starts using tongue on them as well. ]
Or that you're not the exact reason.
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Date: 2021-02-18 02:59 am (UTC)Subtlety has never been Zhou Fei's strongest skill.]
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Date: 2021-02-18 08:23 pm (UTC)Though really, I shouldn't be surprised. You've always been fairly direct.
[ And he's always been weak to this, not that he really needs to say that. ]
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Date: 2021-02-18 09:10 pm (UTC)Especially now that Seren is all his, for as long as Seren will have him.
With a shift of his head, Zhou Fei begins to bob on Seren’s fingers, eyes glued to Seren’s face.]
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Date: 2021-02-18 10:56 pm (UTC)Which is probably asking for it, but whatever.
Now, though-
He's watching Zhou Fei as he bobs up and down on his fingers, pressing them down on his tongue, his lips parting as he licks his lips, sharp teeth on display as he does so. ]
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Date: 2021-02-18 11:04 pm (UTC)Time to work his magic. While continuing to bob, Zhou Fei toes off one of his dress shoes and extends his leg under the table to press his toes against Seren’s ankle.]
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Date: 2021-02-19 12:00 am (UTC)It's getting real hard for Seren to not vault over the table and ruin the meal that has been crafted in front of them just so he can kiss the living daylights out of his balii. ]
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Date: 2021-02-19 12:16 am (UTC)With another groan, Zhou Fei pulls Seren’s fingers deeper into his mouth, dark eyes fixed on nothing else but his balii, on imagining the digits in his mouth to be the real thing. His foot meanwhile works up to Seren’s knee, along the inner thigh, and further still, hoping his toes find a hefty bulge.]
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Date: 2021-02-19 12:53 am (UTC)His teeth dig into his lip, twining his leg with Zhou Fei's briefly before he abandons all pretense and shifts to slap his free hand down on the table and vault over the tabletop to push Zhou Fei down. His hand pulls out of Zhou Fei's mouth to be replaced with his tongue. ]
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Date: 2021-02-19 01:07 am (UTC)He pushes back the chair just in time to meet Seren’s body mass with his own and pull them down to the floor. When Seren’s tongue replaces his fingers, Zhou Fei fights back just as furiously with his own as he works at the buttons of Seren’s suit.]
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Date: 2021-02-19 01:35 am (UTC)[When Zhou Fei’s mouth is freed, the first thing he does is release a moan. He loves this aggression from Seren, wants more of it any time they interact and tonight he has his wish. His hands release the front of his partner’s suit as Seren sinks down to the marks and tangle in the lamnii’s hair instead.]
Mmm bite me again, balii. Bite me as many times as you want.
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Date: 2021-02-19 01:51 am (UTC)He can't help the fact when his hips roll a little, bulge pressing against Zhou Fei's as he shifts one hand to move under the suit jacket, fingertips pressing down hard against Zhou Fei's pectoral. Seren's teeth graze over the mark for the briefest of moments before he bites down, already overwhelmed by his desires.
He'll apologize to the captain later. ]
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Date: 2021-02-19 02:18 am (UTC)Just as Zhou Fei's about to curl a leg around Seren's middle, those teeth strike true and fuck if that isn't exactly what he needs. The former assassin releases another moan, high and thready as he rocks his clothed hips against Seren's.]
Balii, my ballii.
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